If my blog is really like a baby, as Dibs says, it is currently being starved to death(having issues; very ventish.)

I AM SO SORRY FOR BLOGNEGLECTING AGAIN. AND AGAIN. And again, and again, and again...

Sorry guys. :-/

Don't know what to talk about right now.

Yeah. Today I gave people this letter I received in an email about the Freedom of Choice Act (about abortion, in America; SOMETHING THAT WOULD LEGALIZE PARTIAL BIRTH ABORTIONS, and make ALL HOSPITALS UNABLE TO REFUSE PEOPLE AN ABORTION, including Catholic ones, and MAKE PARENTAL CONSENT UNNECESSARY...)
and how people are praying over it not getting passed by Obama, who is becoming the new president in a frightening six days.

I really don't like Obama.

I'm sorry supporters of Obama, and pro-choicers, but I just can't support that. I hardly support abortion at all (it is most understandable to me when there is a definite chance that either mother or child will die, or rape/incest, which makes up ONLY 1-2% of abortions...), and it is a very disturbing practice to me. 4,000 babies are killed each year.

And it could possibly be waaaaay more if this thing gets passed. (The email said 100,000 more per year.)

Ya know, I'm just gonna copy and paste it right now.

The email/prayer request:
"Prayer request - start Jan. 11

If you are apposed to abortion then there is bad news on the horizon. For those of you who do not know, the Freedom of Choice Act (FOCA) is set to be signed if congress passes it on January 21-22 of 2009. The FOCA is the next sick chapter in the book of abortion. If made a law, then all limitations on abortion will be lifted, which will result in the following:
1) All hospitals, including Catholic hospitals, will be required to perform abortions upon request. If this happens, Bishops vow to close down all Catholic hospitals, more then 30% of all hospitals in the United States.
2) Partial-birth abortions would be legal and have no limitations.
3) All U.S. tax payers would be funding abortions.
4) Parental notification will no longer be required.
5) The number of abortions will increase by a minimum of 100,000 annually.
Perhaps most importantly, the government would have control in the issue of abortion. This could result in a future amendment that would force women by law to have abortions in certain situations (rape, Downʼs syndrome babies, etc) and could even regulate how many children women are allowed to have.
Needless to say, this information is disturbing, but sadly, true. As Catholics, as Christians, as anyone who is against the needless killing of innocent children, we must stand as one. We must stop this horrific act before it becomes a law.
The Plan :
9 days of prayer along with fasting starting on January 11th to stop the FOCA from passing. I encourage you to pray your strongest prayers. The hope is that this will branch and blossom as to become a global effort with maximum impact. We have very little time, so we all must act fast. Just do three things:
1) Pass this letter to 5 or more people
2) Do it in three days or fewer
3) Start praying on January 11th and pray for nine consecutive days.
(please also fast for at least two days during the novena)
Remember that, with God, all things are possible, and the power of prayer is undeniable. If you are against the senseless killing of defenseless children then the time is now to do something about it!
May God bless you all!!"

All that right there. I'm personally praying for it. I believe that through God, all things are possible. But... I don't know whether or not getting rid of this is in His will. Though I pray it is. But, the world is coming to a close rather soon... it's coming when we least expect it. I don't know if abortion is part of that, but it sure has gotten rid of a ton of innocent lives.

I'm sorry if I sound too judgemental right now.
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Okay, my new blog format for rants/whatever else will now be:

-Big issue/issues/issue I've already talked about but talk too much about anyway
-Personal issues/life/good stuff/bad stuff (hope I don't bore/depress you guys)
-Other stuffs.

In no particular order.
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Today, I'm having issues.
Or at least as of this moment.
I don't know. I think I'm too judgemental or critical and mean and unkind, and then when I'm not, I'm way too sensitive, or self-depracating. I have never been able to find a happy medium. Lately, I don't think I've been sensitive enough toward other people who are having issues. I mean, am I not supposed to care most for those around me? And I'm really bad with my faith lately too. I don't know. I'm just confused and headwall and circley spiral and stuffs.

I just went to Timber Bay, which is usually totally and entirely and amazingly uplifting when it comes to my strengthening my faith in the Lord. But this time, it just didn't effect me. Just reinforced things I already knew. I still believe in God, and His miracles, and His son, and everything, it's just, I don't know if I trust Him enough... I keep questioning myself. (And those liars on ASN who say CHRISTIANS NEVER DOUBT THEIR FAITH. o.e) I'm just questioning... things. Like if I actually existed back in Jesus's day, would I have really believed what He'd been doing was good? It was the people who had the simplest of faith who were some of the most amazing. And others who screwed up and got back to Him anyway. (And that's just the way it is now too; I don't know, I just find recovery stories more inspiring than people who haven't had it so bad and still make it through life very well... unless they're helping other people... well... I dunno. I guess I can be inspired by a lot of things. Lots of faith. I think... okay, now I'm off topic. Sorry!) Either way, would I have believed it if I had seen it? I keep telling myself I would have. And that I would have believed the prophets and everything before He had come. I just don't know. It's just this one little doubt that was planted in me and just keeps getting more and more twisted and destructive.
I don't give up on this life. I don't want to give up on God's plan for me. I KNOW He knows what's best for me. And I KNOW He has better plans for me than I could ever have. I want to trust Him. And I don't want to believe what's wrong.

*exhales*

I think I just got through that.

Amen.

Alright... Now onto...
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OTHER STUFFS.

I have just realized that Sam 1 and I have hardly anything in common. (now feeling very shallow for talking about crushes.)

Okay, back to serious stuff. (Again, I'm sorry if I anger you, depress you, etc...)

My friends are still having severe issues and I'm still neglecting them. They call, I might not call back, I take forever to call them... (OMC, I should call Rose, like right now...)

But... yeah. And I don't know. They might be having issues, and I might not be there for them... And I know they're having issues... I should probably talk to them... :-/

Love you guys.

God Bless,
Aly