Music-y-stolen thingy. (I GOT TOO MANY SERIOUS AND NON-AWKWARD ONES. xP)

(This was originally on Levi's blog, then on Dibsy's blog, but I must give credit to Levi for his coolness in posting this. 8) YOU ARE AWESOME!)

((I may have songs that are a little too poppish on my Windows Media Player for your guys' taste, so I apologize. D: Also, because you probably won't know of her, when she shows up in this: http://www.jillpearsonmusic.com/ Jill Pearson, who attends my church, who sings and writes amazingly, and is overall awesome. :) You can listen to some of her songs and look at the lyrics of all of them there.))

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down

If someone says "Is this Okay?" You say:
"Photograph" by Nickelback (...Okay then. Lol. That's a bit of a rant for "Is this okay?"...)

How would you describe yourself?
"This is What It Means to Love" by Jill Pearson (A bit of an ego there, title-wise, I must have... *jk*)

What do you like in a guy/girl?
"Far Away"-Nickelback (I don't like to be far away from people... :( But that's okay. It's a good, romantic, song, so I guess it works. :) ILY Nattie. <3)

How do you feel today?
"My, Oh My, What a Miracle"- Jill Pearson (I wish. :( )

What's your life purpose?
"Fall to Pieces"- Avril Lavigne (Lovely... xP )

What do your friends think of you?
Say (All I Need)- OneRepublic (I guess it... could... sort of maybe fit? o.o)

What do your parents think of you?
Innocence- Avril Lavigne (Great... heheheh... they are clueless. *jk*)

What do you often think about?
Nothing in this World- Hoku (Lovely. A post break-up song. *sigh* I don't think so...)

What do you think about the person you like?
Who Knew~ P!nk ( :( Sadness. )

What is your life's story?
Living Water~ Jill Pearson (I think that's a good thing... ^^)

What do you want to be when you grow up?
High School~ Superchick (I hope I'm more grown up than that... though I might not be, sadly. :-/ )

What will you dance to at your wedding?
All at Once- The Fray (I suppose that's okay. I hope my future husband and I are sure about each other... )

What will they play at your funeral?
Turn My Heart~ Jill Pearson (Saddish. :( Hopefully my heart will be focused where it should be then. No... it will be. Thank you, Lord.)

What is your biggest fear?
Contagious~ Avril Lavigne (.-. Well, obsessive relationships are usually a problem... but this could be genuine in the song... yeah, it probably is... maybe... gah. I don't really fear that though...)

What is your biggest secret?
Princes and Frogs- Superchick (O.O I am not a boy, if that's what it's saying...)

What is your future going to be like?
Chocolate~ Jill Pearson (XDDDD)

What do you see in the person you like?
We Will Follow the Sun~ Hoku (Sure, why not. xD :) ILY, Nattie, again. <3 )

What will the song be for you and your spouse?
Runaway- Avril Lavigne (I hope not...)

---This is where the original one I found stops, but I'ma keep going with another one I just found. I'm having too much fun doing this. I have to do this more.---Levi

Will you get far in life?
Four in the Morning~ Gwen Stefani (...Um, what exactly does that mean? o.o)

Will you get married?
The Best D*mn Thing~ Avril Lavigne (What does that mean? I hope it's a yes... I wanna get married. D: :( )

What is your best friend's theme song?
Savin' Me~ Nickelback (Leah... is there something you're not telling me about? )

What was high school like?
Pure~ Superchick (I hope so...)

How can you get ahead in life?
Franklin~ Paramore (FINALLY! A Paramore song! :D Anyway... Sounds kind of melancholy. So I should stay in my town? o.O)

What is the best thing about your friends?
At the Corners~ Jill Pearson (Awww... you guys are awesome. :) )

What is in store for this weekend?
Songs with Wings~ Jill Pearson (Sounds good to me.)

To describe your grandparents?
So Bright (Stand Up)-Superchick (I don't know my grandparents very well... but I suppose that's goodish... sounds like something a grandparent might tell their grandchild maybe if they were doing stuff that isn't so great...)

How is your life going?
This is my Friend- Jill Pearson (AWESOME! Amen to that.)

How does the world see you?
We Live~ Superchick (Happy.)

Will you have a happy life?
God of Hope~ Jill Pearson (Amen to that.)

Do people secretly lust after you?
My Heart~ Paramore (People secretly want to give their heart to me? o.o)

How can I make myself happy?
Hundred~ The Fray (But that's a MELANCHOLY song... :( )

What should you do with your life?
Restore~ Jill Pearson (I suppose that's goodish.)

Will you ever have children?
Beautiful Offering~ Jill Pearson (o.o I think that's a yes... yay!)

If a man in a van offered you candy, what would you do?
It's On~ Superchick (XD)

What does your mum think of you?
Anything but Ordinary~ Avril Lavigne (I suppose that's a good thing... I am anything but ordinary. *jk* XD :) Thank you... mom?)

What is your deep dark secret?
Vienna~ The Fray (What's that supposed to mean?! o.o)

What is your mortal enemy's theme song?
What I've Done~ Linkin Park (Well, at least whoever my mortal enemy is won't be my mortal enemy forever...)

What's your personality like?
Lying for You~ Linkin Park (Oh joy. o.ee. Two Linkin Park songs in a row... o.o)

What's your motto?
Can God Live in a Broken Heart- Jill Pearson (Okay. God can live in a broken heart...)

What do you think about often?
She Is~ The Fray (Ummm... maybe? o.ee Probably not. I don't think of girls that way... maybe my friends...)

What do you want right now?
You First Believed~ Hoku (Sure.)


((Wow, I'm done. D: No super-awkward ones. Which is sadness. *sigh* But still goodish, I suppose. I wish YouTube had a shuffle button on playlists... that would work waaaaaay better. XD :)

I know ya'll pro'lly wanna hear abou the wedding, but... (vent/rantpost.o.e confuzzlingpost)

For starters, the wedding was great. There was an after party for the after party of the after party. All three parties and the wedding were cool. And my cousins pwn you.





Anyway, now to my dumb stupid emotions no one really wants to hear about... okay, maybe I'm wrong...





*hugs* I love you guys. *sigh*





School started today. I missed most of the day, due to my flight coming in.





But everyone seemed pretty nice. And it seems like I didn't screw up my friendship with Jared as much as I thought I had...








Okay, and NOW, to stop avoiding talking.





(Hm, I wonder where my guidance counselor's office is now... the school's office is all like, rearranged... o.e )








Okay.





Combination of sixth grade... and... well, you know what, no. It's all outside school. Everyone's got problems already.





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I was interrupted. By my parents. Talking about a lovely new routine. *sigh* Why couldn't I just let myself be inspired by them and their academic excellence, even though their families were... erm... (put nicely), different than my own.

*sigh*


In so many ways, I'm selfish and self-centered, and vain, and cold. And I create my own problems. And maybe, somewhere deep in the caverns of my weird, screwed-up mind, I just wanna study psychology/psychiatry(yes, psychiatrymaybenow) so I can say I have a mental disorder, get pills, and feel fixed. Actually, that wouldn't even work. If that's what I really think. Which I'm sure I don't... but some part of me... might? Now I'm confusing myself! Maybe I'll just drive myself insane... xPP



Anyway, I'm also either mellowdramatic/sacrificial/right? . I don't know. You know how in the Bible, one of the apostles (I don't remember which... ) speaks about how blessing and cursing come from the tongue. How a stream that produces freshwater cannot produce saltwater, or something similar to that.



I have that. A lot. And it shouldn't be.



It's not just my mouth. It's my mind. I confuse myself sometimes. I try to figure myself out, when a part of me knows the truth, while the others try to think of other things.



I have horrible self-esteem. Some people might not know that.



I hate my body a lot sometimes. I just think I'm ugly sometimes. And it's wrong. God made me. He made everything about me. I should pray more. I should lean on God more. But so many times I get so dang close to falling into that pit of temptation. And it's always within myself. No one else's fault.



No one's ever told me I'm worthless, no one's ever told me I'm fat, or ugly, or stupid, or that I was a bad person. Everyone even says I---
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Gah. Interrupted. More. So, I started this entry yesterday, and didn't finish it, and I don't feel like it.

But, I did feel like posting it. I'm praying for everyone else right now and their beginning-of-school-issues. My issues are dead today. I feel fine.

Meh. So bipolar I am.



Sooooooooo...

Nothing epical happened for me today at school. I finished my homework during school. The schedule's weird, but that's okay.

Hot N Cold by Katy Perry is addicting. o.e Gawsh, I hated her first single... but she's so contagious! D:< GAH!

Anyway... yeah. *sigh* Love you guys. God Bless. :) Sorry for this confusing entry. I just really wanted to update for you all... even though you probably didn't want to hear me angst on here...